Sammy Jenkis

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  Anyone else an Ex Bethel "volunteer"

  by BackseatDevil in

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  2. experiences

  i was wondering if there were any other ex-bethelites on here.

  i personally regularly went for temporary work at brooklyn then was assigned to the farm for a year and a half.

  it was... one of the most bizaare experiences of my life.. so i wrote it all down (finally, after some 15 years) so i won't bore anyone on here with the details of the story - because bethel doesn't show up until chapter 15... and for you straight folks, it gets a bit gay in two places... but nothing gross.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  Never was a bethelite but was definitely hammered about the prestige and honor it would be to go there. This thread is awesome and I can't wait to read the full story.
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  Those moments you'll never get back...

  by Sammy Jenkis in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i remember being in high school hoping i would make it to see graduation sometimes even praying for it as i could feel the end was near.

  but i graduated leaving behind prospects for school because i knew i needed to work hard in service to prove i deserved the real life.

  i heard a talk at a convention that nearly guaranteed this system would be wrapping up soon and it scalded my mind with assurance that i was not sacrificing for anything.. i remember in the keynote address the speaker said we would only be back for another convention if god wanted.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  Thanks everyone for commenting, @brainmelt enjoy the holidays @kojack57 you're right and thank you, and @ cult classic I completely understand. My best wishes to everyone
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  Those moments you'll never get back...

  by Sammy Jenkis in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i remember being in high school hoping i would make it to see graduation sometimes even praying for it as i could feel the end was near.

  but i graduated leaving behind prospects for school because i knew i needed to work hard in service to prove i deserved the real life.

  i heard a talk at a convention that nearly guaranteed this system would be wrapping up soon and it scalded my mind with assurance that i was not sacrificing for anything.. i remember in the keynote address the speaker said we would only be back for another convention if god wanted.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  I know it could have been way worse, thanks.
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  Those moments you'll never get back...

  by Sammy Jenkis in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i remember being in high school hoping i would make it to see graduation sometimes even praying for it as i could feel the end was near.

  but i graduated leaving behind prospects for school because i knew i needed to work hard in service to prove i deserved the real life.

  i heard a talk at a convention that nearly guaranteed this system would be wrapping up soon and it scalded my mind with assurance that i was not sacrificing for anything.. i remember in the keynote address the speaker said we would only be back for another convention if god wanted.

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  I remember being in high school hoping I would make it to see graduation sometimes even praying for it as I could feel the end was near. But I graduated leaving behind prospects for school because I knew I needed to work hard in service to prove I deserved the real life. I heard a talk at a convention that nearly guaranteed this system would be wrapping up soon and it scalded my mind with assurance that I was not sacrificing for anything.

  I remember in the keynote address the speaker said we would only be back for another convention if God wanted. I guess he must really love that convention center because we came back a bunch more times and continue to use the place.

  That was 5 years ago and I can't help but look back and think about how much I wasted waiting on something that didn't happen- huge let down. I remember every counselor and school offer that I turned away because I had what none of them could give me, a "guarantee."

  What did you lose for your guarantee?

  p.s. I'm in school now but it still kind of sucks to think that I would have been done a long time ago.
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  How much have you changed as a person ?

  by Phizzy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i was a born-in, and in for over five decades.

  in the comparatively short time since leaving the wt for good, for good in both senses !

  , i feel i have become a very different person, in quite radical ways.. how do you feel you have changed ?.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  I remain the same but have a different outlook as before everything was doomsday this and end of the world that. Now I see only that one day I started and unfortunately one day I will end. No more no less.

  On a positive note I believe I am less judgemental and much more open-minded but have definitely closed the door on religion. I miss my loved ones but I guess that's the price paid for choosing what to believe.
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  Another story of JW's and child abuse

  by Black Man in

  1. watchtower
  2. child-abuse

  i've really been getting into these life stories of ex jw's.

  it just confirms i was right in getting out of the cult like the plague it is.

  here's a link to another powerful story about ex-jw stephanie hammond.

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  Holy shit!

  I hate how this always come back on the person who was hurt- you should be forgiving, you should make changes, you, you, you!

  No, the disgusting filth that dare touch ANYONE without their consent should change, so the guy feels guilt and it's all okay now? This is why I left along time ago because everytime I read one of these stories, or heard a news special, or heard it from one of the brothers I knew that something was wrong. How could the almighty sovereign of the universe blind himself to the injustices in his own house?

  And at that moment was when it all clicked- it could only be one answer: he doesn't care about people who are violated. He cares about people who hurt others as long as they fake well enough to never be detected as hypocrites.

  Thanks for sharing this post.
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  Elders school...

  by snare&racket in

  1. jw
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  anyone have any news about the recent elders school?

  apparantly the message was 'let's tone down the cold hearted shit'...... .

  any ideas anyone?.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  Ha ha, that was funny
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  What do you think happens when we die?

  by cognac in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm trying to figure it out.

  if we are just dead then there is no point to anything i do.

  i'd like to hope our energy goes somewhere... but, i'd like to examine what somebody presents as proof....

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  Sammy Jenkis

  I had a brother who almost died in an accident and he only remembers seeing some sort of "light" before waking up in the hospital about a day later.

  The truth is that what many of us believed was that we would only be there- suspended in sleep. But now anything goes, I'd like to think we all meet those we treasured most and live happily ever after.
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  still hurts..

  by spirituk in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hello again..following my story, its been 6 months since i last heard of my sweet jw baptised girlfriend .. as most of you know she couldnt stand the guilts inside her for me ,a wordly person, so she decided to leave me .. i didnt want her to leave me but she left me anyway.. i still love her..i think about her everyday..this pain doesnt seem to leave.. she hurt me so much ,we havent talk for months,she told me very bad things(such as she dont feel anything about me now ) and i still think about her..i ve been with several other girls in the meanwhile and having sex but still i think about her every day .why is that?

  all the loving she gave to me when we were together ,the hugs and kisses surround me when i go to sleep..its unbearable..please help me :( what to do?

  i m sorry tha i still bother you with this topic but it hurts so much.. :(.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  Someone who really loves would never leave, sorry to say this but let her go. The purest love is the one that can see the other persons decision, analyze it, and respond only by allowing them to do as they wish.

  We know you love her and the respect you've shown as she's left proves it to her too.
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  exJW Psychology 103--Let's Reconsider "Confidentiality"

  by Billy the Ex-Bethelite in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  over the course of decades as a jw, an elder, a bethelite, then learning ttatt and wanting to leave, i'd collected a lot of insight into the power of "confidentiality.

  " although the confidentiality in a judicial hearing is supposedly to protect the sinner, in actuality, i saw that it was about control and was protecting the power of the jc.. i didn't use any of this knowledge until i was called before the boe because the other elders figured they had grounds to remove me as an elder.

  it was a work situation that only lasted a matter of hours, but it was enough that they seized the moment.

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  Sammy Jenkis

  Yeah I tried to show my mother this dateline clip about the sex abuse and she freaked. Yelling the way you do when your dog pees inside the house, better to avoid collapsing the dream then to show what's really going on. Thank Billy for sharing the info...